Missed Opportunities

I feel like I have really let my blog down this past week! In my defense, I was out of town all weekend and missed was not at work a couple of days as well. Plus, there hasn’t been much activity between me and the object of my obsession. He was out a couple of days as well. I’m absolutely positive he’s missed me as much as I’ve missed him! :)

Surprisingly, I didn’t think about him at all this weekend. We went to Arkansas’s Crater of Diamonds to dig for…well, diamonds. Not exactly my dream vacation, but the kids wanted to go. It turned out to be more fun than I expected though. Me being Ms. Negative and all, I guess when you have low expectations it’s harder to disappoint! Unfortunately, I didn’t return with any diamonds. But then again, I didn’t do much digging either. Shoveling dirt in the blazing sun for hours isn’t in my DNA.

Back to Brandon...he wasn’t here Friday morning, so I wasn’t disappointed at all when I had to leave work at noon to go on my family vacation. But I ran into him in the parking lot on my way out. What luck! Well it’s bound to happen occasionally considering I park right next to him. It’s a great spot; I don’t park there because of him. Uh, BS much? Anyway, we greeted each other and again, I panicked then got in my car as fast as I could.

I say “again” because last week I did the same crap. I think I missed a great opportunity to have a (brief) conversation with him. Just before quitting time, out of nowhere comes this mini hurricane! It was storming like a mother and the power was flickering and people were basically freaking out (i.e. using it as an excuse to leave early). So I’m wandering the halls for whatever reason and on my way back to my office I see that he has opened his blinds. I was able to see the 60 mph winds, torrential rains and lightening that I know wanted to kill me. I’m walking straight towards him and he’s obviously interested in me the weather. He makes eye contact with me for a few seconds and I think “This would be a great time to comment about the weather” which I know is really boring, but it would be a legitimate conversation, an upgrade from “Morning. How are you? Good!” Right?!

Stupid me, I mumble something to myself and make a beeline for the guy’s office next to his. I know this guy, he’s in my department and I know I can talk to him, I’m safe. I don’t know what happened! I’m so terrible at starting up conversations. What a wuss/idiot I am! I can’t believe I chickened out like that. I really let myself down!

Oh well. Maybe I’ll get another chance soon to redeem myself. I’m sure I’ll screw that up too. I can feel that he really wants to talk to me though. Or maybe that’s just gas.